Never Mind Writing!

Yes, its my personal blog, and right now I feel that living an isolated life is not that bad. When you are meant to love and live alone, you can't even cry or roar out of your choice. It's my choice to be alone. Hence , I am now dependent much on my virtual world.

These days I am so confused as in what kind of personality I am!!!!!

Today, a very dear friend of mine helped me to analysis what I am and asked me to work on my mess, whether it is relationships, work, health or emotions... whatever it is! He asked me to figure out my complexes within myself. Yes, I am envy of some people.. not to destroy them but find them so lucky that they get what they want.

Yes, my nature and thoughts are changing! But I need to clear up the mess, actually I don't know how to deal with people. I know it sounds so weak but I have no clue to deal with it. When you have nothing wrong in your heart for people and they misunderstand you and judge completely wrong.

I am an ENFP Personality, that today I feel for the growth of my own friends but they never understand me. I guess I am wrong to worry about them, Well the most interesting thing happened today is that I got to know I am ENFP.

From today, I decided to write atleast one blog post daily, of what I learned, because as I am single and don't believe in chatting with friends any more after recently break-up of my bestest buddies.. huh..

So, now I am starting blogging back! Stay Tuned for my write ups here! Catch tomorrow. Its time to go home and have some time to organize my next day.

Good Night!

Aayat - Yes, Living with love!

How do you feel, when you know that you are meeting last time in your life with the person who is the most integral part of you?

It is really hard to justify the types of love - I have loved 2 times in my life from the bottom of my heart without caring of world, and I guess its enough to love someone intensely without expecting from them back. When I loved my crocodile, I was mad in love and now I love my baraf I am sensible in love. Today, both of them are not with me, still I love!

Many think this is craziness and useless to fall in love when there is no scope of living with love. It believe love is fitoor. No one can change my feelings and state of love in this world. Today, I am taking my life ahead just with my passions, goals and karma. Yes, karma is my savior. I am not in relationship but I am in love. 

Going out of my world with new changes to live my life better and much better alone! I live alone because I am not a good person to have my friends and people around me. Isolation its what I have with me and that's enough to reach at my goals. 

I will stay here alone with my feelings. 

I am fine with the tags I get and I just want to live peaceful life. 

Yes, I am thinking Loud

Many times I feel like loving and feeling so pretty being so much called single girl. Life is amazing, as most of the time you ask life so many things and gets frustrated thinking that we are alone... and the think you wanted you need to feel yourself.. but that takes time to understand that what the self love is... :)

Yes, today after long I am talking back to my point... my love for my crocodile, I lied my crocodile that I love someone... but missing crocodile's presence, feel, touch and breath... yes yes it sounds so romantic.. but feelings for love are always lovely.. ohh... I am bhushing... singing for my crocodile...

'It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it
when I see you again When I see you again...'

When we share the feelings honestly in this world to the people we love or really admire a lot... people take us granted or doesn't consider what our soul says through eyes.. very few people dare to look in your heart through your eyes and listen to your soul through your words... but describing your feelings is the best and proud thing you do for yourself... Actually I am not behind anyone but I have learned to be very original and true to myself...

I really doesn't care who read it or not... I love to write rather than talking to anyone about my feelings and what I feel... Yes, Finally I decided to write again for myself.. Really i am coming with the beauty ( may be bored or time waste for many who doesn't are not suitable for my feeds),...

Yes, I am blogger by heart and bloody entrepreneur by profession... I can't kill my passions..

So, here I declare to think so loud through my words and cheers to my spirit of living my life in the way I want to... :)

Yes, feeling so AWESOME... don't believe just why! :P

Stay tuned with me... will writing more and more about my experiences. 

Love always hurts....Better escape!

I know I have been writing after long... But the grip I lost connecting my heart, soul and mind... I found again!

Yes, I am in love but still not clear with whom, am I in love with other person or myself! My love for my crocodile is never faint but intense love has again in my heart now... may be I am in love for myself and in addiction for other person!

Life and time makes you learn many important lesson which make you either rough or cautious, being rough is not my personality but yes I have chose to be cautious of this lovely diseases named love. It's very strange that I fall in for all same kinda peeps... may be that interests me... It is rightly said... and I sing that too.... 'Log kehte he pagal... hun mai yeh bhi na jaanu... dil lutaya hai mene.. ab kisi ki na manu... ' hahahah... its not senti but yes it is something I learned being crazy is natural mode of my moods.

I can't bear heartbreaks, hence.. I do escape from such situations.. Yes, its true this bloody LOVE, Addiction, Emotions are very much unhealthy for me at this stage of life... I am influenced so much by my crocodile or may be this a natural scorpion attitude.

Learned to be with yourself, because if you want to be with someone else, it may possible they are not interested to be with yourself.

GN 

Emotions are Useless But They Are Priceless

Truly when we grow up.... we actually have the same responsibility for the happiness of our parents! After years, I understood that its not just the bond of ‪#‎shaddi‬, we human need... we just need bond of ‪#‎love‬ with a lovely ‪#‎saathi‬...

Yes, ‪#‎emotions‬ are Useless but they Priceless too... I wish and pray everyone must get the deserving love and saathiya in the world! B'coz that's the true happiness! grin emoticon

Life should be - lived happy - living happy - will be living happy..... smile emoticon

‪#‎GodBlessEverySoul‬! ‪#‎AwesomeCommercial‬

I believe, your mind should be more positive than your health!

I am suffering with bad luck since a month.... first my worst internet connection issues --- then my frustration which forced me to take a break... yes I allowed myself to get lost in my world for 5days in Mumbai, the place I always want to grow and dream and live it.. like every headstrong women ---- when I came back to my city I got into stupid concepts of no-strings attached relationships, awfully influenced and forced to think, but came out of it within 3-4 days ----- then happened to suffer due to bloody riots in my city and almost for a week no internet...daammmmit it was hell for me and worst days of my life ---- then again my rootcanal pain killed me and treatment started ... the day I was light from rootcanal pain... ---- I got into suffering again i.e. Dengue fever... yes since 3 days I am suffering from it... and my sufferings are becoming hell... but tonight I am better as had good medications and injections... couldn't sleep entire night....

It's just can't sleep when my mind is negative... yes all these bad lucks have filled so much of tensions and negativity in me.... it's hard to make anyone understand in this world about all .... even my family is not ready to believe on my bad luck.. bcoz of that even I had started trusting that I have lack of skills and abilities... I thought I should leave my entrepreneurship and go to Mumbai and get a job....

I spend entire night with lots of sweats rolling over my nerves and devils dancing on my head....half a night I read ( reading always helps me a lot) Finally... I bannged  and decided why I started?????

And I was fine and got my gutts back to bring a good luck in my life back! Yes, the lady who inspired me the most this night is Sapna Bhavnani... yes I read lot about this flamboyant and truly Headstrong lady! Thanks to her and my self fire... I got up! I believe the best way to give self time and enrich yourself...

Hopefully I get well soon and soon to start writing my first book...( yes I am really working on the concepts ) :))

Seeya!

Yeah--- I do nautanky sometimes!

It's a high time, even its not a time for writing this post. I am in between many things, still for my quick minutes freshenup break!

I thought to post it... this big lol! Most of the time, I spend with my mom she talk about my marriage!
And this my reaction.. to make her laugh ......