Love always hurts....Better escape!

I know I have been writing after long... But the grip I lost connecting my heart, soul and mind... I found again!

Yes, I am in love but still not clear with whom, am I in love with other person or myself! My love for my crocodile is never faint but intense love has again in my heart now... may be I am in love for myself and in addiction for other person!

Life and time makes you learn many important lesson which make you either rough or cautious, being rough is not my personality but yes I have chose to be cautious of this lovely diseases named love. It's very strange that I fall in for all same kinda peeps... may be that interests me... It is rightly said... and I sing that too.... 'Log kehte he pagal... hun mai yeh bhi na jaanu... dil lutaya hai mene.. ab kisi ki na manu... ' hahahah... its not senti but yes it is something I learned being crazy is natural mode of my moods.

I can't bear heartbreaks, hence.. I do escape from such situations.. Yes, its true this bloody LOVE, Addiction, Emotions are very much unhealthy for me at this stage of life... I am influenced so much by my crocodile or may be this a natural scorpion attitude.

Learned to be with yourself, because if you want to be with someone else, it may possible they are not interested to be with yourself.

GN 

Emotions are Useless But They Are Priceless

Truly when we grow up.... we actually have the same responsibility for the happiness of our parents! After years, I understood that its not just the bond of ‪#‎shaddi‬, we human need... we just need bond of ‪#‎love‬ with a lovely ‪#‎saathi‬...

Yes, ‪#‎emotions‬ are Useless but they Priceless too... I wish and pray everyone must get the deserving love and saathiya in the world! B'coz that's the true happiness! grin emoticon

Life should be - lived happy - living happy - will be living happy..... smile emoticon

‪#‎GodBlessEverySoul‬! ‪#‎AwesomeCommercial‬

I believe, your mind should be more positive than your health!

I am suffering with bad luck since a month.... first my worst internet connection issues --- then my frustration which forced me to take a break... yes I allowed myself to get lost in my world for 5days in Mumbai, the place I always want to grow and dream and live it.. like every headstrong women ---- when I came back to my city I got into stupid concepts of no-strings attached relationships, awfully influenced and forced to think, but came out of it within 3-4 days ----- then happened to suffer due to bloody riots in my city and almost for a week no internet...daammmmit it was hell for me and worst days of my life ---- then again my rootcanal pain killed me and treatment started ... the day I was light from rootcanal pain... ---- I got into suffering again i.e. Dengue fever... yes since 3 days I am suffering from it... and my sufferings are becoming hell... but tonight I am better as had good medications and injections... couldn't sleep entire night....

It's just can't sleep when my mind is negative... yes all these bad lucks have filled so much of tensions and negativity in me.... it's hard to make anyone understand in this world about all .... even my family is not ready to believe on my bad luck.. bcoz of that even I had started trusting that I have lack of skills and abilities... I thought I should leave my entrepreneurship and go to Mumbai and get a job....

I spend entire night with lots of sweats rolling over my nerves and devils dancing on my head....half a night I read ( reading always helps me a lot) Finally... I bannged  and decided why I started?????

And I was fine and got my gutts back to bring a good luck in my life back! Yes, the lady who inspired me the most this night is Sapna Bhavnani... yes I read lot about this flamboyant and truly Headstrong lady! Thanks to her and my self fire... I got up! I believe the best way to give self time and enrich yourself...

Hopefully I get well soon and soon to start writing my first book...( yes I am really working on the concepts ) :))

Seeya!

Yeah--- I do nautanky sometimes!

It's a high time, even its not a time for writing this post. I am in between many things, still for my quick minutes freshenup break!

I thought to post it... this big lol! Most of the time, I spend with my mom she talk about my marriage!
And this my reaction.. to make her laugh ......

Tarraaamu - A sound of my heart!

OMG ---- I am so glad to write my personal blog after such a long span of time... Yes that was a recovery period.

Ohww.... I am glad that I am now a solitude and resuming my blog with new sound of my heart here -  Tarraaamu... strange right? I believe all of us have a sound of happiness in our heart. Life and time has made me realize that everything has to just go on! No matter what!

Yeah.. I sound like a crazy person, but I am content.. I am thankful to my crocodile for making me a better person today. There was a time when I use to go selfdate alone with sadness... and now I am a Headsrong JC.. I feel happiness and power to be with myself. Genuinely, the best companionship I have in my life is with me.:)

'The Heart Want What It Wants' - actually  more than this song I love and strongly associate with the determination to the words '  the heart want what it wants '. Something which makes you feel that its your fault in your relationship and things remain unsaid... that's not LOVE.

Coming up soon with the life... as its not going to boring  anymore as I found the scorpion living in me...

CYA

Someone is happy with less than you have.

To give peace to my mind when I am very much tired, I just bang on or have look at arts.

Arts is something which freshen up everything in me. Today, I came across one photograph. Let me share here as well:

I went in silence mode and being an emotional character there was a suddenly oozing of tears in my eyes, don't know of what feeling it was. Life is taking me to a journey, when I am meeting my consciences da-nigh. Only one things I can understand these days that I have lot to serve... I have lot to give and I have lot than anyone else have in this universe. I am not trying to create any fiction here but my mind is articulate to create fictionary world for me which is quite very divine and pure.

Yes, whenever we become sad,,, we must remind and seek that someone is happy with less than what we have..

Amin.. :)

Road Roller Day...! Can't Resist To Write!

It's a day where I guess, I am experiencing new things since morning with a surprise!

Its my work time but I am not able to resist myself to write this blog. As within couple of days, I am experiencing changes in my thoughts and perception. Actually, its not judgmental but its a positive change.

There is always a time when I am already approved and simultaneously I have to prove myself. Today, sometimes I see and think that when you are growing why attitude also takes a hike! When the clouds of attitude and proud arrives on my mind, my heart just flush that out by saying just more thing to my soul - ' Hello Madam! Apna aisa konsa teer mara hai?'

Yeah actually, attitude comes in our life when we think that we the winner, by saying this  I don't mean to say that we are losers, but what is that great we have done with makes remarkable. There is no Kick as such all! Then without doing something remarkable how can people show attitude! Yes, I am trying to narrate the same, why people show attitude to me!

This was just one part of Road Roller Day, other part was people behave as if they are my fans and try to get the work out of me. Third, people who compete with me! Fourth, people hates and avoid me but I adore and respect them, and fifth people hurts me as they don't trust me.

All these 5 parts, I faced today since morning. I am feeling that is it karma or fiction...!

The questions go one... ! THINKING THINKING THINKING...

Being Alone